Derrick (:

2010-03-20T12:02:00.000-07:00

Tiring yet enjoyable (:

I'm back from work ! Very late i know, it was really tiring ! Today so many customer, really busy to the extreme. But serving them was really enjoyable, i can't put that in words, i guess?
From 5.40pm to 1.40pm, 8 hours of serving customer and wiping the POPPER.
The POPPER is so hard to clean, i clean until my skin tear, pathetic right ?
Hahaha, after that i close my counter and count the money, got 1k inside, WOW !
But i up 40 plus dollar, means i got extra 40 plus dollar in my counter.
Then i got scolded, WTF -.- !
They thought i cheat the customer money. Why would i cheat for a unknown company that i don't even know well?
Make sense right? Idiot manager. Alright, i shouldnt bad mouth him.

Tomorrow going for competition at parklane at 12pm , wish me luck !
I guess i going dota for a few more rounds then i go sleep already,
talking to my girlfriend now, cannot let her know i want to dota, later she not happy >.>.
CIAOS !

2010-03-16T21:28:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blogging !

I'm back to blogging ! Now i have quite a lot of time to use my com even though i have work but posting will be as per normal. I don't know anybody will read it but still, i will post almost everyday.

I going to prepare for school now and then have to rush to work immediately, so i'll be back posting around midnight.
Today shall be the brand new day for me as is the brand new start to start blogging too.
I hope everything will go smoothly today !

Back from work, was kinda fun working in GV, serving the customer and seeing them happily watching their show.
It was much better than i work in SUBWAY last time ! Seriously, subway sucks.
But food is thumbs up.
I was wondering why i am not tired even though i work for so long, i think i really serious in these work already, ohmygod, i going to me a workfreak !
Later at 10am i still got orientation for my work till 11.30am, how saddening, but still got pay $_$ !
At least i won't waste my time at home using computer after my school, is such a boring life man ! Do you agree?
And guess what? I bring back two bags of popcorn, woohoo ! CRAVING CRAVING !
Alright, i go enjoy my popcorn already, sayo nana !

2010-01-22T05:06:00.000-08:00

Having headache.

I won't let anything that cause my mood to fall. Never ever.
I should concentrate on my studies, so wont have the time to blog so much.
-END-

2010-01-16T07:44:00.000-08:00

I just can't see the rainbow in you.

Today was just a horrendous day for me.
Watching a comedy show also can cry, how nice can it be? Laugh

Anyway, thanks EST for the treat but i still returning you your 10 bucks on the next meeting.
I sure i will and i insisted.
Sorry i complaint to much and maybe your ears hurt but really thanks for your listening ears, i feel much better.
At least i can rant all my frustration out in one goal, she tell me a lot of things that make me understand quite a bit.
I choose to be a robot and i have to remain to be one until i broke down one day and stop functioning. I shall distress myself again at the gym so i won't think so much.
I going to break my limits from now onwards. I will motivate myself to move on even there is a obstacle in front of me. I will get up even if i fall. No matter what i will try my best.

If you choose to be cold with a good reason, i'm fine with it, but you choose to be cold without a good reason, then its unfair to me.
I already explain to you everything and yet you still like these, you ask me don't give in to you, but i just can't bare to do it.
I afraid of losing you, i hope you get it. I wont say much from now.
The choice is in your hand, make it worthwhile, choose your path.
Take care of your stomach and this is the last wish i can ever make or you can say is a request from me.

2010-01-15T22:31:00.000-08:00

When we gain something, we lose something.

What a day yesterday, i understood already.
Now, you lead your life, i lead my life.
I won't interfere cause that how it is.
I shouldn't think of you. But still good luck for your ST JOHN INTERVIEW.

Woke up in the morning and decided to go gym with desmond as he called me.
Wanted to go for a long time, today is the day.
I really enjoy myself in the gym, not as if is the playing.
Is the process of building my muscles and strengthening my own body, i think i shall go tomorrow with him again !
This can make me not to miss you and think of you.
You can say that i'm numbing myself to gym, but i'm not.
Just i feel like going gym now (:
I think i going out with EST and her friend again since i got nothing better to do at home alone.
I rather be outside enjoy my day rather then staying at home and make my mind go wild.
I should stop here for now.
This is Derrick , signing off at 2:38PM , 16/01/2010

2010-01-15T07:48:00.000-08:00

Our life are just different.

Today lesson is super boring !
Keep doing summary summary and summary, what a teacher. ~.~
School ended at 12.30pm today.
For today, i going to watch movie with ESTHER and her friend, Gladys <- ( i don't know name spell correct a not.)
Eaten my lunch and took train to TAMPANIES to wait for ESTHER. So i thought i can meet ZITING too, but she with friends , so i shy to go alone . So i go spy on her at LJS >.>
She looks not bad actually, not as bad as it looks.
And she kept complain about her DOMO BAG . ._. !
BLAHHHHHHHHHHH !

Waited for Esther for kinda long then she reached train station, then still have to train to KALLANG to watch movie, how nice ! But i don't mind, must understand girls ma. Waited for Gladys for quite long also but its alright, understandable (:
Somemore still have to cab down Kallang Leisure Park, they lazy to walk or take bus so its not my fault.
Finally i watched AVATAR, its like i waited so long to ask people to accompany me go watch already, lucky i got my chance today. ^^
The movie was seriously nice ! Love it, can watch it again i don't mind.

After watching, began to think of her and the date today, keep checking my phone and got no sign of message or call from her , was disappointed, but whats the point?
My mind is blank totally, don't know what to think but you.

Sorry Esther ! Shouldn't emo in front of you and make you worry, no more next time(:

I'm just tired, why can't you just spare sometime at least reply me abit? Its like a lot of times already but i didn't say anything just because i don't want to upset you. I hope you understand how i feel. You can say i am being unfair to you, but today you should know the date, just a little request is very hard?
I know i shouldn't put all the blame on you but i tried all my best to think positive, thinking that you will reply me at least 10 messages but today was less then 5. If you were me, can you tolerate?
i'm not asking much from you seriously, am i?
Both of our opinions and life are different, i am trying my best to adapt to your lifestyle already.
That is all i can say.
Once again, happy third month.

2010-01-14T07:36:00.000-08:00

There will be a miracle !

Yawns ! Kinda tired today, slept at 1.30am yesterday woke up at 11.30am.
My lesson starts at 3, my timetable timing really is insane ! Don't know what kind of timetable is that.
Plus today lesson end at 5pm then can go home already, i'm really speechless . Laugh !
Today lesson is boring to the max but i still manage to pull through, i promise myself and GOD that i will work hard no matter what it is, i already wasted 1 year on my Secondary 5, i can't waste anymore time already, i will prove to those who look down on me that i will score well.
I know i can do it.
Those who underestimate me , prepare to open your big eyes to see Derrick soar ! (:

Hmm, tomorrow going watch AVATAR with Esther and her friends, still don't know the time and venue but its alright , i just feel like watching that movie LONG LONG TIME AGO ! Finally i can watch it, weets (:
Esther can say is my closes friend i met in online and treat me as a real friend which i can share my feelings too, i hope she thinks the same too,
For your information, we are just friends, so don't think too far away...
I have a girl i love, so i won't go flirt girls.

Tomorrow is the 3rd month already , but you don't have the time to meet me due to the parents meeting at night in school.
Its alright, i can understand, but i'm just wondering what you said just now before hanging up the phone? What make you so moodless after you said that sentence? I didn't hear properly and you don't want to say .
10 more minutes to 3rd month,.
HAPPY THIRD MONTH, hope you won't have those weird weird stomach pain again and please please take care of yourself.
I don't know if you will find my blog a not, but i think is a matter of time.
I think you already fell asleep , sweet dreams and ily (:

I

2010-01-11T08:36:00.000-08:00

A fruitful day indeed !

Today was the release of the 'O' result , wasn't able to attend to support my classmate due to my lesson in ITE.
Ya , i was enrolled today in Macperson ITE and its my first day of school. Its was quite enjoyable in school. Sort of make new friends? But why my class so many malays? ):
Im not racist, just not used to malays over populate chinese students in the class.
I reach school at 8 and waited for 2 hours until i know my class? How fast can that be? But at least i got patient.
My new friends are all girls, i don't know why , cause im sitting in the middle surround by girls?
And today lesson is about PHYSICS ( RESISTOR VALUE ) ! I totally forgotten everything, i think i have to start all over again. Luckily, there was a helpful girl student approached and teach me or else i won't be able to finish it . Guess what? She is from Myanmar and her name is ''May'' ( This name make me think about my sec 2 life ._. ) Ahhhh, anyway, she was very friendly but kind of hard to communicate with her as her essence is different from us , but i guess i slowly will understand ^^ .
I think i made a total of 5 friends in school today, but i'm shy , so i didn't talk so much with them.
My class is a multi racial class, hahaha , so honoured to be in this class .
I hope tomorrow lesson will be even better than today !

Hope you are sleeping well now (:
Good night my dear !

2010-01-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

Torturing times

Mum, i really don't know what are you thinking about, how could you ever use this words on me?
Its so hurtful, i'm not money minded.
Firstly, you didn't tell me you put a sum of money in to my bank account and so i thought it was my bursary money, so i go spend on it . Now you scolded me for using your money you put in. How i ever know?
Secondly, my bursary money you spend on my phone and watch you didn't even tell me. How can you like that? At least you should tell me, then u still malign me , saying : " if i say i use your money, you will still buy that phone? " Why are you like that?
Can't i deserve some respect, all of you never admit your wrong before. I am the always apologising to you even im just partly wrong.
I'm not angry with you, i just disappointed why you say those words. You seriously make me feel that i always have to give up my face just for you.
I can even know that you have never admitted your fault before, even if you had, you are just unwilling. You are my mother and yet you scold your son until like that.
What can i say? You just really disappoint me.

2010-01-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, today was kind of rewarding. My wish really came true i guess ?

2010-01-07T18:17:00.000-08:00

God please bless me

Currently is 10.17am in the morning, just came back from MACPERSON ITE.
Nope, i'm not studying there, i'm just trying to apply a place there , but they say i have to wait until 15 January then i know the outcome.
Sometimes i really regret never taking my 'O' levels , is this fate or what? Suddenly i have a heart problem just like my late dad, it scare me to hell. Thought i was really going to operate thats why i didn't take my 'O' .
Now i don't even know am i eligible for my ITE. Really making me a big headache.
I scared people will look down on me as i don't have any good qualification and didn't study at all.
I guess something is just meant for this way, i really hope to get a place in ite and prove myself i can work hard and study hard, i don't want to let my family members down especially my elder sister. I just can't afford to let her criticize me again and again each time.
I was try not to start a fight with her, but sometimes its really unbearable. She just don' understand how i feel, she just based on her own thinking and say things.
Its really hurtful, seriously.
i will stop here i guess...

2010-01-06T06:05:00.000-08:00

Love just need trust.

Hmm, i guess i back to blogging.
I shouldn't have hide my feelings to myself anymore. Its unbearable already.
Haaaahs, i ain't emo, don't have to worry ! (:
Looks like its cold war again, i won't message you until you know your mistake.
I used to give in so much for you, you don' even know. When we quarrel, i am always the first person to message you and asked for your forgiveness, why you just can't understand at all.
Cant you just listen to me once? Something i just can't tolerate.

Seriously, i don't understand you at all.
Why are you so differently? Is it i changed you? Its my wrong?
I don't know either.
I guess you also won't accept what i said to you.
I see how long can you don't contact me, i wont be the first to message and call you again.
I don't want to rely on you for the rest of my life.

I know someday you will know my blog and see it, i don't care .
Because that is how i felt. Take it or not, its up to you (: